here we go again

Finding for journals/articles/words string into sentences published by anybody else except ourselves. Researching on a topic which is completely foreign to us. Figuring out hidden interpretations of spss output. Rushing to meet a 5 day dateline. I can't wait for this to be over. Wait for my good news. Week 2.

jangan pandang belakang

This is what we saw from the cafeteria. She was gliding up and down outside North Lobby. You can't see her long black hair here so it might not be as impactful, but with her back facing us it was really something else. Fong was imagining what would have happened if she were to cross the street. With the wind blowing against her flowy white shawl. And her dark ebony hair. In broad daylight. Ok I'll stop now.

chocolate incentive

Save the earth. It's the only planet with chocolate.

haha how can I disagree? :)

october

I actually like October because firstly, Christmas feels soo near! Plus no matter how old you are, as long as you're a student, it means year end holidays are coming! Ok maybe not for ACCA students who would probably be mugging like crazy right now. And it also means the year is ending and a brand new year dawns. That somehow gives me a sense of relief.

But in recent years, October also brought me something else. The thing is, I have pretty sensitive skin and have always had rashes once in awhile- be it from filthy environment to the sometimes-ridiculously-crazy-equator weather. But in secondary school one fine October, my rashes did not subside as it normally would after awhile with the normal meds and lotions. A visit to the doc followed by a jab 'cured' the ugly patches all over my legs and arms. After that, the same rash came again every alternate year and everytime only the same jab could make it disappear.

But these past few years, the October-visiting-rash come every year at about the same time and stay for months and that miraculous jab doesn't work anymore. As if that's not bad enough, I now feel feverish and more hot than usual nearly everyday and the rash spreads uncontrollably. All the docs I've been to can't find any common thing I might be allergic to. I mean what only comes in October? So for now I'm allergic to myself. Yes that's apparently possible. My blood's not circulating as it should. But why October I don't know, maybe it's a yearly cycle. However one doc did give me something that I can take everytime the rash gets out of control. It lasts for 2 days before I have to take it again. And I take it for a few months EVERY year. But that's ok. At least I have instant relief from the pain and internal heat now.

Thesis is the other thing occupying October. It's rush hour. VIVA is next week! Where did all the months go???

eggtarts & muffins

I'm running for most boring page on the internet 2009. No I'm kidding. I didn't forget to update, I just forgot what it was I wanted to say everytime I hit 'New Post'. My memory is really failing me. And I'm 21. But then again, there's always Wai Fong, oh and Sam, who both would understand the frustration of forgetting what to say or do, and who are both younger than me.

So I finished my last long semester final exams, got my results, nearly finished enjoying my 3-weeks-is-too-short holidays and started working on thesis again. I must say, waking up early in the holidays is by itself sad. But waking up early to go to uni to do thesis drains every ounce of motivation to graduate well within me. Our thesis is due end of this month, and we're still a long way to go. And I don't feel the urge to hurry, which is strange and bad.

Laziness aside, I feel like I'm balancing on an unsteady trick of a wheel more than usual lately. Figuratively speaking la of course. Everytime I think I've got a hold of what's going on, I lose balance and fall back to square one all over again. It's exhausting. Sometimes I wished all the pointless thinking my brain does all the time would burn off calories. Then at least some guilt would be taken off those bars of chocolates. It's not easy but I'm learning a little bit more everyday to be less of me and more of Him. Sometimes I feel like a short sighted creature fighting to keep my eyes on eternity. In the process of learning however, I'm seeing how when faith collides with God's faithfulness, amazing things happen and I can't help but keep repeating how great and mighty my God is.

Classes start again next Monday. 7 weeks to THE END. 2 subjects- Moral (yes, Moral) and Business Ethics. I guess they thought it would be timely for us to study what's right and wrong yet again before they release us into the world. Which is funny because a semester ago we were actually taught how to manipulate figures. On their defense, it was so we could tell if it happens in the future and not be blinded to what's going on around us.

Everybody tells me my blog posts makes them hungry. Erm well, that's the point ;) So I wouldn't want to disappoint anybody would I? My mom has been baking/cooking up a storm nearly everyday. And the storm's pretty delicious :) Like I've said before, looking at how well fed I am, I admit I'm pretty blessed. That said however, I really should stop eating. Now feast your eyes!

Okay, now go grab a snack. Have a great friday + weekend yall! :D